Top 7 Good Feelings

7. Around 5:30 PM everyday when I'm getting off work -- especially Friday

6. Spinning a DJ set and getting in the zone

5. The feeling just after cleaning up for bed after a long day

4. Finding the perfect clearance deal on an item I've been long looking for

3. Unexpected gratitude expressed by someone you have worked hard to care for

2. Watching a great movie that helps me have a breakthrough about my own life

1. Realizing that God made something really good out of a really shitty situation

A Very L.A. Dilemma

When my roommate moved in two years ago, we got an all too familiar notice on our door informing us that some filming or other was to take place on our block. She was very excited that the cast of a TV show she loved was actually going to be just down the street from us.

Just a few months later, the novelty wore off quick when she realized that this happens once every few weeks. The street is overridden with trailers, portable high-wattage lighting and cops. Woody Harrelson, Queen Latifah, R&B group Cherish and the cast of Heroes have all spent time on my block. Once in a while we might see a small check for our inconvenience, sometimes there is blaring music on repeat for hours, and always we lose all of the parking on our street. I won't lie: It sucks.

I live in the historic West Adams district. The neighborhood that began as the wealthy center of L.A., now home to mostly lower-income Black and Latino families, has apparently recaptured the attention of the upper class.  

I do find it fascinating that this dynamic exists here in my lower-income hood, on the north border of South Central. Only in L.A. would the poor find themselves so regularly displaced and inconvenienced by movie stars. 

Forever High School

In my time, it was the Brat Pack. But through the decades, it's clear that whatever the form -- from "Grease" to 90210 to High School Musical -- high school drama sells. There's something about high school that captures the beginning of our understanding of individuality, socialization and relationships that is unique to most other experiences people willingly enter into. Beyond graduation, we disperse further into segregated, specialized environments based on wealth, ethnicity, class, religion, and interests. But in high school, the sportoes, motorheads, geeks, sluts, bloods, wasteoids and dweebies (as coined by John Hughes), one and all are stuck on one campus.  

But though we all leave it eventually, our issues often follow us right off the school yard. Whoever you were on campus, many can't seem to shake the ghosts of their high school past.  Guys chase that cheerleader they felt like they could never get, girls pine after the people-pleasing football captain or ASB president.  Or sometimes we are also drawn to the person they used to be: fat or nerdy or on the outside, converted to socialized, improved adult cool.  We chase those images of strength or beauty that we feel make will make us feel like one of the cool kids, when if we just took care of our own inner children, we might grow up and realize those dynamics should have been left at the senior prom.

The problem is, even the head cheerleader can never actually do the job of getting rid of your ghost. If we can't get to a point where we can grow up out of high school ourselves, we can't get someone to do it for us anymore than we can do it for someone else. But plenty of us try. Relationships and even marriages are built on these dynamics, and people can make them work -- as long as they both commit to staying in high school...for as long as they both shall live.